Everyone who has considered suicide has their own reason why. Suicide is never the answer, no matter what the reason, but whatever your why is, it is important and deserves to be heard. This is the purpose of a suicide note.
For me, writing a suicide note is therapeutic. I never write when I am in crisis. I know that under duress, I will forget someone or something. When I am suicidal, I’m too overwhelmed to put my thoughts down on paper.
Each time I start a suicide note or poem, I take the attitude that I have only one chance to get it right. The words must be perfect, so I rewrite, revise and start over many times. I spell check and fix the grammar. Ironically this engages my creative mind, where my brain forgets it’s trying to kill me. It is where I realize at my core that it is impossible to get it right. A life, your life, my life, is worth so much more than you can possibly compose.
Writing a suicide note is something you have to do yourself. It is your unique thoughts, your purpose and reason but there are some common themes that come up such as feeling sorry for the pain you will cause, being tired and exhausted, dealing with chronic pain and having a feeling of hopelessness. Your note will be different from everyone else’s. You can’t use ChatGPT. I already tried. You have to do it yourself because you deserve the effort. My simplest suicide note was 25 words long.
Please don’t cry.
Be happy with the time we had.
Use our memories as your palette
and paint a beautiful dream
where we’re together again.
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