It never happened

 

I can't remember like I used to

There are gaps and spaces

that are completely lost.

It's not like I've forgotten

but rather it never happened. 

 

A black hole drifts through my thoughts

 

A black hole drifts through my thoughts, 

randomly eclipsing memories 

leaving behind an empty space 

that’s so deep and dark

I can’t find the words.   

It’s troubling  

to draw a complete blank

when you know you should know

It’s troubling

to think

that it’s only getting worse.

I think of you every day

 

I think of you every day.

and miss you all the more.

I need a friend;

someone to listen,

someone to share my life.

I need you

I'm alone.

 

I am forgetting

I am forgetting more and more, so much so I don't even realize it. No longer are my thoughts stumbling around my head struggling to get out and be recognized.  Now it is all just a hole plastered over and painted hiding the fact it was ever there.