I keep my struggle inside

I keep my struggle inside  and do my best to live in normalcy  The problem is when the battle spills over,  when I can't contain the fight  I become a source of frustration,  a casualty, a burden.   Would I be better to lay bare the Titans' War; to let everyone see  the paralyzing turmoil inside; to act out the constant battle that dogs my every thought? Should I collapse to the ground  instead of gripping my fist tighter?  Should I translate thought to speech  instead of fidgeting with my fingers?  Should I cry out in desperation "I'm losing"  instead of saying "I'm alright?"  No Nothing would be gained and I would become an even greater burden.  I will stay silent with my war and perhaps one day I can relate how Olympus was assailed and victory was won.