A better way

I need a better way. Lists and routines will inevitably be left undone It has to be what I want to do not what I am obligated to do; not what I can fail to do. I have already failed too much in my life and I don't want to live just for the sake of failing again.  I want to see living as the best option, the better way, and not simply be told that it is by people who don't want to grieve.  I don't need to be better organized. I need a gps that will simply recalculate whenever I take a wrong turn always rerouting me to ensure I arrive.  I am not asking too much. I am not being unreasonable. I just want living to be more than being alive.