Wednesday, 31 May 2017

What to Expect When You're Depressed - PSYCHIATRISTS


PSYCHIATRISTS

When you mention mental health services the first provider that usually comes to mind is a psychiatrist (pdocs for us in the know, “shrinks” for those over 60). My experience with this profession is decidedly mixed.

No couches or ink blots
First things first, get the traditional image of a psychiatrist out of your head. There are no couches or notepads or ink blots or even a cigar for that matter. They make it very clear on your first visit that they are primarily phamacologists. Their specialty is medication not therapy. I have often heard complaints from other patients that psychiatrists are only interested in pushing pills. I admit when I first started on this journey I said the same thing. I have since come to realize, at least from my experience, that that is what they are suppose to do. Complaining about a psychiatrist always prescribing pills is like complaining about a dentist who only cares about your teeth. Psychiatrists are what they are.

If you're looking for therapy and not medication, then you have to see a therapist. A psychiatric appointment does not typically allow for deep discussion. I saw one pdoc who started our first session by saying “I only have 15 minutes so don't go into too much detail.” She wanted the current problem with no backstory, pronto. Another psychiatrist kept answering his pager during our session. Clearly there is a shortage of psychiatrists but that doesn't change the fact that he made me feel entirely unnecessary. It was as if he already knew which medications he would prescribe from me even before I sat down. He already knew “the story.” He didn't need any details.


Pharmacologists
Psychiatrists are primarily interested in compiling a list of acute symptoms which they can then use to select the most appropriate medications. Follow up visits then focus on the side effects and the benefits of the chosen drug and whether or not there is a need for a dosage change or a different medication altogether.

I respect psychiatrists for what they are and I know that without my current medications I would not be able to write this book. That said, there does seem to be a bit of alchemy involved in the prescription process. No one really knows how psychiatric pharmaceuticals work and so selecting the right medication for a patient is not as simple as prescribing antibiotics. I have had experience with a number of psychiatrists. In fact I have seen a total of seven different pdocs in the past year. This was not by choice. My hospital visits availed me of such variety.

What I found troubling was that each doctor seemed to have their own drug preferences. In fact I often had to sit and listen as one psychiatrist would tell me why another psychiatrist's prescription was wrong. One doctor, for example, saw no sense in breaking pills in half. His attitude was to go up a full dosage no matter what. He also guffawed when he heard I was on lithium. He told me it was little more than a vitamin at low dosage and I was promptly taken off of it. I remember how he stroked his beard with a satisfied confidence when he revealed which “flavour” of medication he thought was best.

The very next day I saw another psychiatrist who proceeded to prescribe a different drug altogether. The most bizarre pdoc interaction I ever had was when one psychiatrist actually asked me what drugs I wanted. How would I know? Did I look like an experienced brain med user? I just shrugged my shoulders and said “I don't know.”

No follow up
What was even more frustrating than the variety of medications was the lack of follow-up. I was monitored for benefits and side effects in the hospital but once I was discharged that was it. Unlike my wife, who was given a very specific three-year appointment schedule for follow up after her cancer surgery, I was discharged with a bottle of pills and no appointments. I was instructed to see my family doctor who readily admitted she didn't have a strong knowledge of all the psychiatric drugs available and was uncomfortable making changes to my medications. I felt as if I had been pushed out the door and the door was locked behind me.

I didn't get any follow-up treatment until I was accepted into the mood disorder clinic. At my first visit there I saw two psychiatrists who independently confirmed my Major Depressive Disorder diagnosis. After that I saw one of them regularly. Only then did my medications became consistent and effective. What I found particularly reassuring was that if a medication had a side effect I thought was too severe, we immediately changed the it. The psychiatrist didn't have a favourite drug, rather he was interested in finding which one worked best for me.

I should pause here for a moment to clarify that my perspective on psychiatrists is limited to those I could access free of charge. My family doctor tried to find me a psychiatrist in private practice but either the waiting lists were ridiculously long (years in length) or they outright declined my case. Apparently being suicidal was deemed too needy and so I was turned away by one doctor, sight unseen.

My advice to those who want to access a psychiatrist is to have your family doctor put you on every waiting list available, whether that be urgent care, a mood disorder clinic or a psychiatrist in private practice. If you want to see a psychiatrist immediately, the hospital ER is your only option.

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