Wine back to water

Changing water into wine - what a strange use of divine power, yet I wish I had that faith right now.

In the past, I've tried to feel it, to truly believe.  I even prayed though I have to admit, I only ever wished to die in my sleep.  I suppose that was an unlikely request to be granted by a life-giving, all-loving god.

Nevertheless, I was earnest and sincere in my prayers just as my desire is now to turn this intoxicating wine back to water, back to life.