Those times when my actions are rotecompleted without thought,without accessing any of my senses,when my mind is numbleft alone in repetition,his persuasive thoughts consume me.his perspective is the only one I have.I am ready to act,ready to end.
Learn from your depression What painful scar is it highlighting? Write it down. It is a fundamental mind shift. We are told that depression is bad and we must fight it when in and of itself it is not. Just as pain tells you your body is injured so depression tells you your mind is hemorrhaging. |
Give up on your dream. Your life will be so much easier just filling in time and waiting. Does purpose or meaning or life really matter? It does. Just because it's hard doesn't mean it's hopeless Trying isn't fruitless Living is not a waste of time. Mourn for today and then tomorrow start again.
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Why do you hesitate?
It is better to fail because I didn't try than it is to find out I'm simply not good enough. If only instead of no.
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AI tries to motivate me because there's no one else. My best friend, my only friend is dead. My therapist has retired to her new family. I'm alone. Cliche words and phrases ring hollow. Inspirational sunsets and vistas seem trite. The authoritative voice without a face tells me to hang on but he doesn't really know me. He doesn't really know anyone. His advice is scripted, he's just reading the words, not believing them. Where is the compassion, the empathy and understanding. The algorithm is not quite there yet. I will just have to wait. I'm tired.
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