You can't give up now.
You've made it so far.
Take it slow if you need to
but don't stop
Take a breath if you want to
but don't fade.
Remember,
each step crushes the Critic.
each step is your own reward.
Look head and understand
you are important.
Depression is not a choice
It's not an excuse
It's not selfish.
It's living with a disease
that can kill you.
Lately these lyrics have been devastating:
dragons live forever, but not so little boys
I can't explain my silence
for fear you will think less of me.By lowering my mask,
the mask I've worn so faithfully
the mask you see as me,
you won't see the truth
rather a convenient excuse.
You'll think I'm abdicating all responsibility,
heaping all the stress on you,
blaming my disease
so I can live carefree,
without consequence
when in fact
I'm protecting you
from the constant threat of suicide,
a burden too cruel to share.
I want to help
do all that I can,
I just can't explain my silence.
It starts with an idea,
a word
a turn of phrase
a simple tune.
then a chord
some harmonies
and a catchy bass line
the rush as it all comes together
practised and refined
inspiring
finally it is ready!
Next comes the money
beg, borrow and steal
rent the studio
hire the sound engineer.
to create the digital code
Get an agent
or sign with a label
or do it all yourself
You release your original content
and I hear it!
Over the tinnie grocery store speakers
as I restock the shelf.
I don't recognise the tune
it is simply sound meant to soften
the murmur of shoppers
and their squeaky carts
It's not familiar
and never will be
it's white noise that
I'll never hear again.
